She comes apart in the avalanche...

Christmas was good. I had a wonderful time with my family and friends. Got a Wii and I can't stop playing it. aha also got a gps and a new robe. Both of which I love.







saw yes man and it was pretty funny. There are so many movies out I want to see right now...I've had the flu since Friday so all I've been doing is sleeping and eating saltines. Today I'm going to try and go to staples to pick up so school supplies and try to make myself a little more organized...we'll see how that goes.

peace love and 7up

Hello lovely ladies and gent's. Hope the start of the holiday season is going well for all of you. Friday night I had a photoshoot at a highschool basketball game and then I went out with McSlut. We went to Ra and ate sushi, dengaku tofu, grilled veggies and rice. After we went to see Milk which is one of the best movies I have ever seen. I suggest everyone go see it. All the actors did an amazing performance and I was definitely tearing up at the end. Was going to do more galavanting around after but I had a migrane and wanted to go home and spend time with my pup. Saturday I didn't go into work and slept all day because my migrane was so bad. It was horrible and I couldn't make it out to Shavasana's show and that totally bummed me out. Sunday I went to work, sat around, got another migrane and came home and cried because my head hurt so bad. haha. This week I haven't done anything but go to doctors to figure out what is wrong with me. Rhinitus or something like that. I don't know, its because I have bad allergies and what not. Whatevs. ha


Epic man, Epic Life




She's adorable, and she thinks she's a cat.

In other news friday I'm going to shavasana's place to set up for a party I'm not even going to ha. After making drinks and cooking chips and salsa I'm going out to le bumblefuck with my mother for our family's annual cookie exchange. soo many cookies, definitely worth ditching the party.

Saturday is my birthday. Woo! I made it another year. Probably working during the day, then coming home, getting ready, dinner at cheeseburger with fam and a few friends



then maybe out with some friends, or going home to sleep depending on how i'm feeling. ha.

Sunday is work then massage with mcslut. then panera.

Now I'm watching the discovery channel and waiting for boy <3

xox

10 Things I am grateful for…

1) The obvies…family. Without them, I’d be homeless, foodless and loveless.

2) McSlut, Buddy, Shavasana Jones and Anderson…for still being my friends even when I’m completely mental.

3)Harlow, for being the best girl in the world

4) The wonderful people at Fox who have brought me House, Bones and Fringe.

5)The Container Store…for making my disorganized life a little more organized.

6) Motion City Soundtrack, because they make me feel like being awkward is okay.

7) All the other artists who make up my playlists, because without them, I’d be completely boring and motionless

8) Starbucks and McDonalds, for feeding my daily coffee addiction

9) Newspapers because without them, I’d be jobless and newsless

10) Ironman, Hulk, Transformers and Spiderman, for making me feel like a little kid again.

What are you grateful for??

Today was a lazy day, layed around and watched arrested development and cleaned my kitchen. We had to put Penny down last night and I've been a wreck since. She was my best friend for 11 years, I grew up with her. I'll miss her a lot. When I'm ready I plan on getting a puppy and naming him Ziggy.

Tonight I was supposed to go to a pumpkin carving party and eat a lot of junk food but instead I went and bought my halloween costume. I found this uber cute dress for 3.60 at a thrift store. I'm going to be a retro Pocohantas. Tomorrow is birthday party and depending on the weather...I might go to this cornmaze festival after or to go decorate my friends bar for halloween.

Now I'm going to put on PJ's and watch Ironman. yessuh.



I think I need to cut my bangs...



I want these cupcakes!!!!


xx

I need to redecorate my bedroom. Atleast paint it and buy a new bed. Ha I don't know why I'm going to redo it, I'm leaving this place in a year. Maybe I'll go to Boston or San Fransisco. Someplace with a reputable newspaper I can work for. Yup.





Kids are growing up too fast these days. 15 year old girls think they're 20 and have established themselves as people. It doesn't count if mommy still drives you and your friends to movies. I don't understand why kids want to grow up so fast anyways. With the economy is the way it is, I'd try and stay a child for ever. like Peter. Take advantage of being young and being free. Adulthood isn't all late night parties and stylish apartments.

In other news...I'm going to be pocohontas for halloween and I need to find moccasins!!!

xo

Saturday went to a haunted house and had to get on the expressway to get their. It took longer to get there then it did to actually walk through the maze but it was legit. If I was 10 I'd definitely be scared. On the way home I ended up near Milwaukee Wisconsin because me and McSlut can't follow directions and think we're much smarter then we are.

Nick and Norah's Infinite playlist was really cute. I liked it more then I thought. I love me some Micheal Cera.
Last night I worked till 8 finishing photos and infographics for the newspaper. Definitely wears me out. Final product in my hands tomorrow. Siked.

This weekend I'm either going to my lakehouse for some r and r or I'm staying home and doing nothing. It might be nice going away for a while, but I don't wanna pack and be away from civilization for too long ha.

Time for me to pretend to get more work done. Or sleep.

loveME

I caved.

missalexjean.tumblr.com

I'm still sick. meh. Bronchial nonsense...who needs lungs anyways.



i've had 8 bottles of this since wednesday night.

Fall is coming. Can't wait. Looove fall clothes, jackets and boots.

I wish I had something more profound to say except that I can't make you believe something you've convinced yourself is true. And honestly, I don't know if you're worth me fighting for you anymore. This is who I am. I have amazing friends, yes friendships take some work, but not this much, and I don't really need anymore friends. Which makes me sound like a bitch but I'm an introvert, I don't like many people and I find my 'friends' dvds more enjoyable then you.

I don't rely on anyone.
I would rather read a good book then talk gossip on aim.
I party hard and never back down, which is sometimes not a good thing.
I break rules.
I care more then I should.
I don't become attatched. People leave. I leave.
I have huge committment issues.
I relocate as often as possible. Even if it just means sleeping in a different room in my house.
I am shy in person, which is a misfortune, because then maybe I would like more people, and more people would like me.
I don't really care if you like me though. I like myself, thats all that matters.
I am a huge klutz. Always covered in bruises and scrapes.
I don't go to shows anymore. Which sometimes bums me out. But then I go.
And I realize how socially awkward I am.
I am socially awkward, I ramble and my palms sweat.
I say the wrong things at the wrong times.
I'm a jerk. I'll walk to the moon to prove you wrong.
I'm a girl. I'm young. I'm way more experienced then you might expect.
But thats okay. Expectations always get the best of you.



I've been watching this movie all day. I hate weekends...

I will update this more. School started and this semester is crazy. 2 history classes and an advanced psych class. Lots of work.

Friday night I passed out cold. So sick. Worked a few hours on saturday then left because all the streets were flooding and I was coughing on everything. Ha. Maggie came over, brought me a mcflurry and then we fell asleep watching janice dickinson modeling agency. I love her. She's such a mess. Maggie rolled out and i went to the gmas for some yummo food. Came home with a loaf of zuchinni bread and watched coco chanel. good movie. long though. today i called off work, a bunch of the streets around my house are closed off because the river flooded over. such a mess everywhere. shopped a little bit then came home a rested. Later went and got hot and sour soup with my mom and saw the women. such a cute movie.



i love meg ryan. sleepless in seattle is one of my fav movies.

tomorrow i have to get my photoshoot done at chinns because deadline is tuesday and i'm such a procrastinator. yikes.


A

Going to hometown throw down tonight with Lacy. So much going on lately.

busy bees. I never sleep and I'm always getting sick. what a bumout.

My summer is coming to an end and I'm going to implode.

I need a ciggarette.

By far the busiest summer. I've done nothing but work, sleep and work some more.

I don't understand why a 47 year old man talks to me with bad grammar. does he think because I'm young I'm not able to comprehend a sentence that doesn't use the words aint? I'm not an idiot. I did pass 3rd grade english.

Its lovely how in winter, my legs are spotless and the second the weather gets nicer and I wear dresses I'm laced with bruises and scrapes. perfection.

this blog really has no point. today chilled with the family. they're crazy dysfunctional and hilarious and irish. nobody beats that. then went to dairy barn with maggie where I proceeded to spill chocolate all over me and walk around with my dress over my head so people wouldn't see my chocolate stained dress. I'm extremely classy.

coming up is work then lakehouse with the fam if I don't score some lollapalooza tickets. doubt I will because my connections haven't gotten back to me so its probably no dice.

need to go to ragstock and get some school clothes. favorite store ever.

time to scrub off chocolate and get ready for work tomorrow.

loveFACTORY

Forgot about this for a while. So much has been going on. Life is insane and I can't walk straight half the time. Last weekend I had breakfast at this really yummy place on Clark called Orange. I always see people standing outside in the morning and I finally went in and had one of the best breakfasts of my life. Seriously...They make their own juices and you can customize your own smoothies or drink. Soo good. Got some Ben Pao tofu and yumminess. I haven't eaten their for a year and its still soo good.

Summer is almost here which means more time for more things. I need to get a real job. Haha. I need gas money!!!

Went to a show with Lacy on sunday all the way out in the middle of fucking no where. Ha actually it was Aurora or Lyle or something like that. Reminded me of the good days when I went to shows with 100 kids in the room and everyone knows everyone. I rarely have time to go to shows anymore but I'm going to try and go to more with Lace. I used to be such a little club rat and now Sunday was the first show I went to since...October? Yikes.

I want a talk show so I can interview people every day. Wouldn't it be fabulous. I would have really obscure guests. Like the guy who keeps his dead wifes body in his basement and lives with it. Or the lady that chopped her husbands wang off. That would be amazing.

Dream big lovers.

Long time no type. I'm currently bored out of my mind and I cannot wait for summer. The weather has been really nice the past few days and I'm bummed that it's still going to get cold. I want summer, flowers, pool parties, and sundresses.I have soo much work to get done before monday. ahh! my sleeping habit right now sucks. 3 hour naps. and then no sleep for the rest of the day. I need to get on a routine because I have to start getting up at 6. yuck. Many many meetings coming up, stoked to see how they're going to turn out. Maybe applying for a job sometime soon. Gotta get the rest of my life on track first. Ha. I'm craving Red Robin garden burgers and I've only eaten captn crunch and strawberries for a week. Agh! Haha need to detox and get back to yoga. I didn't go this week because of fever/sinus infection/flu. Maybe going to this HSP workshop in a few weeks my yoga place is doing. I wish I was going on vacation this summer. Bum out. Puerto Rico in december though. Sweet deal. Maggie came over today and we loafed, then got sundaes at mcdonalds. Sleeping and reading books about Africa. I want to go there so bad!!! Maybe after college I'll join the peace corps on another organization that does alot of work over there. That's my plan.

People have no idea what they're getting themselves into when they become friends with me.
I should tell you...but I'll wait it out .


--A

so much for my end of public fights. ha. me and my dad together aren't a good match. something always happens when we're out and we always get in the middle of it or the drama starts with us.


haha. my dad promised me a sweet tea from mcdonalds so we went and decieded to go through the drive thru so he could get home and watch dancing with the stars. some assholes in front of us were dicking around and we waited behind them for 25 minutes to get 2 drinks. i finally honked my horn and them and they decieded that it was in their best interest to call me a "mothafuckin slut" and some other not so nice words. i contained myself and held to my word and didn't get out of the car or yell anything back..my dad on the other hand decieded to yell back more derogative comments and almost got out of the car. haha then we get to the window and the lady didn't know what we ordered so we picked some random stuff on the menu and she gave it to us. ha. so for 2 drinks we got a bunch of other stuff that i wont eat and will probably sit in my refridgerator till it decomposes or i throw it out.


on a more brighter note, i cannot stop reading. which is good because that means i'm not thinking so much of things i dont want to be thinking about. my mind is crazy and i give everyone who has stayed in my life credit for putting up with me. my mom says i'll be lucky if i can find a husband that can tolerate me. i dont really think i'm that bad though. i am who i am supposed to be and i know that he's out there. so thats all that matters. if not i'll just knit and have an apartment full of turtles, eat cap'n crunch and play poker for rent money.




the future is closer than you think. you can change it.

on the road 137 miles away from home. I'm watching pirates of the carribean 2 and drinking starbucks. I can't wait to get home and see my dog! she probably doesn't even realize I'm gone but she'll be excited when I walk in the door.

tonight going to a rush game possibly. skybox tickets and I haven't seen my friend for a week so I'll probably go just to catch up with her.

its weird how something that played such a big role in your life is now something that feels so far away. I was a whole other person a month ago and while I'm excited that I've overcome my negative ways, I'm sad to see the old me go. not everything has changed but definitely a big part.

everything evolves...its scary to think but this world is going straight down the shitter. yikes-o.



I still read your horoscope everyday...xox

sitting in beautiful north carolina watching talladega nights with my cousins. this trip has been awesome its gonna be sad when I leave thursday but I can't wait to get home and see my friends and my home and my own bed.

yesterday we went to the square and ate at this amazing coffee deli place. soo yummy. then we went to the mall nd bummed around. everyone makes fun of my chicago accent. aha. today we went up to blowing rock and boone for shopping. really beautiful views. I'm now considering appalachain state. so pretty up there and I would have family close by.

thursday morning I leave and will be home where I belong.

I have nothing to complain about. for once in a loong time I am truly happy and could not ask for anything more.

leaving tomorrow. can't wait. i still need to pack and do laundry...which means i have until 530 tomorrow morning to pull my shit together. this week has been a complete bore and i have done nothing productive all week long.

today me and maggie got massages. very nice. i'm so oily right now its disgusting. i need to take another shower. after we went to panera for some soup. yummm. i've decieded i can no longer eat because everytime i do i get the worse stomach pains. so i'll just starve myself until i can no longer take it. haha.

easter is sunday. going to some church with my family to watch rocky play in the band. sweet deal. can't wait for my aunts home cooking. some of the best food ever. too bad i cant eat it. ha

i'm going to document my trip with thousands of pictures and videos which will most likely get uploaded here.
ahh.

too early to be up on a sunday morning. watching boondock saints and decieding whether I should get up and make some breakfast.

st. patricks day party all weekend. one big drunken irish fest. fun fun. shopping today for my trip. everything is flying off the walls right now trying to stop me, but I'm getting out of here no matter what.

soo many decisions to make. I'm so paranoid and last nights party was one big awkward fest. haha. I just assumed the role of bartender and made everyone drinks . aha.

xo

ahh i can't wait for the road trip.
i leave in 2 weeks.
going to n.c. for a week.
love it there.

last night i had a nervous breakdown
while maggie was here.
was almost dragged off to the hospital
because i was hyperventilating.
ha
maggie got us some veggie burgers from red robin.
delicious.
then we loafed and watched factory girl.

we're such party animals we were asleep by 11
go figure.
everyone of our friends were out and dancing.
and we were asleep on the couch
watching fresh prince of bel-air.

kept waking up during the night.
almost fell of the couch numerous times.
maggie left wayy to early and i went back to sleep.

now i'm sitting here writing this uber boring blog
because i dont want to clean up the mess we made last night.
ha.

doing absolutely nothing again this weekend.
catching up on work.
maybe musicing for a while.

who knows.

this is the life. waking up wayy to early only to find that you can go back to bed. eating honey raisin scones with jelly that tastes like alchohol and watching factory girl all morning and probably on to the afternoon.

I miss sneaking into Lollapalooza to see RHCP and going to art fairs in the summer time, stopping at dirty gas station across the street from the super mcdonalds that I have never been too. Sweating my ass off because I'm to stubborn to take a cab and knowing better then to wear flip flops in the city only to come home to black feet and scratches on my feet. I miss summer. Chicago is too cold.

Anywho, my hair is greasy, i have week old eyeliner on that won't come off. I'm wearing socks that are too big for my feet and my dog is shaking off clumps of hair.

so now i'm going to order myself some chinese food at 10 30 in the morning and continue to make a dent in my couch and watch factory girl. maybe across the universe if i feel like getting up and changing the dvd's.

xox